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 Post subject: verbal abuse (poem)
PostPosted: Wed Dec 22, 2010 3:58 am 
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Title: verbal abuse
Genre: depressive and dark (I gues :P)
Author: A Starr (That's me. lol since I don't think NCISFF Special Agent Starr really works with this kind stuff.)
Author's Note: Yeah, it sucks. But I couldn't sleep and I had to get something out. I'll put it here unti I request a "poetry" - of you can call this that- section or whatever. Yeah.

verbal abuse

perhaps the only good thing you’ve got going for yourself
is that you don’t believe the lies that are told by someone else
you’re so gorgeous, you could model, you could be on top
when in reality, you’re flat on your back and could shrivel a cock
with an infertile body a rapist wouldn’t touch
you know how sick that thought is and yet you crave intimacy so much
not that you couldn’t conceive but you’d make a horrific mother
and what male would lay you when they could have better from any other
a vow made to never bring a life into this world without the best of everything
can you handle when those tiny eyes open to their first view of disgust and suffering
crying, bitch, bitch look what you did; this earth cruel enough, quick, shove me back in

of course, it’s not all about the physical looks and sexual appeal
we can talk about the men in their white coats and bars of silver steel
the self destructive thoughts that tornado in your head day by day
like a rabid mutt chasing its tail until it gets gnawed away
it got so unbearable once you cut your own flesh
just to give actual pain to compensate for the unseen mess
you could never go all the way though; you’re too chicken
but whether you know it or not your clocks still tickin’
it’s a shame you don’t care for yourself enough
and when you try to pretend your conscience calls your bluff
down a hole, no one’s going to help; your buried yourself, bitch, now dig yourself out


you’ll never understand what went wrong
with the loving family and the strength you had to continue pushing along
it’s like one morning you woke up and all your talent and knowledge dissolved
your confidence spent a twenty year long night in an alley being flogged
all those teases and taunts you tried to ignore and block
have all sunk in; and now they’re docked.
the shield goes up for all the positive; it’s like a twisted game
battle those who dare try to acknowledge you in a nice way and make them feel your shame
but how can you trust when the majority enjoy watching you fall
when you feel completely alone and that you’ve already lost it all
if there’s one thing seen through the tangle of madness and doubt
verbal abuse; it's a real bitch when it's from your own mouth

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 Post subject: Re: verbal abuse (poem)
PostPosted: Wed Dec 22, 2010 8:14 am 
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Amber. :-/ I think you know how I feel about this. I don't agree with the message, obviously, but it wasn't a bad poem. I'm not a huge fan of rhyming in poems, but this had a nice flow to it. I did like the line about the rabid mutt. It's a disgusting image, but it works well in the context of the poem. But still. :hug2col:

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 Post subject: Re: verbal abuse (poem)
PostPosted: Wed Dec 22, 2010 11:41 am 
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Well I don't neccessarily like the message there either, but that's the kind of stuff "the rabid dog" is made of. Anyway, yeah. Thank you for reading it! :hug2col: As you know, I tried to go to bed earlier than my usual last night because I was actully really tired. Midnight rolled around and I was still awake and thinking. I don't know what made me decide to get up and get that whole mess out because usually when the urge to write something happens, I'm too lazy to get back up. :P However, I did fall asleep fairly quick after that. Then again, I'm up earlier too. Plus, you can't hate it too much. I would qualify this a writing (even though it's garabage) and I didn't see Sue solved my puzzle until after I posted it, so I'm staying on NFA! :confetti: At least until I feel I'm being a complete waste again.

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 Post subject: Re: verbal abuse (poem)
PostPosted: Wed Dec 22, 2010 7:08 pm 
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Yay for staying on NFA! :hug2col: And yes, there was definitely creativity involved in this, so it does count as writing. ;D

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